When I have an intense feeling, I just feel the need to blog. It's my little way of getting the feeling out of my system. Look back at my previous blogs- angry, jealous, overjoyed, self-discovering-they all contain feelings I just needed to let loose.
This blog isn't such a happy read.
I'm just feeling a bit depressed lately. Perhaps it's because of the weather. It was so nice and sunny out, and all the sudden-BAM! it's snowing and gray outside.
I can't blame the entire mood on the weather-but it's a nice cop out. When you're feeling sad or depressed and the weather sucks, it's easy to say, "the weather is weighing down my mood!" but in reality, I feel there is always a deeper reason.
I have a lot to be happy about-A LOT. I just got a position on Pi Beta Phi and Student Government. I just got an AWESOME job at a gym-that I LOVE! I have amazing friends-sisters that would be there for my at ANY moment in time. A boyfriend who is so good to me always, who I can tell everything to, who understands, comforts, listens, and makes even the saddest moments/situations bearable. And my family...gosh...I can't even explain how thankful I am for them. My brother Drew is amazing. If I feel even a BIT of sadness, he's the ONLY one I can count on to bring my life back to where it normally is-filled with happiness. He's what I hope to be when I decide to "grow up" And my step brother Taylor just got back from his mission and it has been SO fun hanging out with him. Dayne is always a solid rock in my life. And Cassie-she's a riot. Blake-what an inspiration!! And the parents-we'll I've talked about them before-I wouldn't be where I am today without what they have done for me.
Now I feel like this blog is a waste, I have far too much to be happy about to be depressed/sad.
This song by Daniel Powter is how I feel/here is the music video..it's so cute/the lyrics are so true...