Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Realization.

I can't believe the semester is almost over. I can't believe that I am almost done with my freshmen year. It seems so surreal. I feel like yesterday I was in orientation wondering how in the world I was ever going to remember how to get to all my classes.

This semester has been one heck of a ride. I've learned, listened, laughed, cried, yelled, jumped for joy, had happy times and sad times. As I look back, it hits me how fast time flies. We really have to make the most of the time we have here on Earth.

To be honest, even 8th grade doesn't sound like it was too long ago.

This year has been an amazing one and once it's officially over, I do plan on writing a HUGE blog about it, so prepare yourselves.

But for now, I'm still in shock that it's almost over. In a way, I'm trying to hang on to the end of this semester in every way that I can. I don't want to grow up so fast. Thinking of turning 20 next year is probably one of the most depressing thoughts ever. It seems so old to me. I still can't accept that I'm 19! And to be honest, on my 18th birthday I shed some tears. I had a feeling that becoming an "adult" meant I had to leave my youth and child likeness behind. That thought haunted me. I wanted to be 17 forever and to this day, it still seems like the perfect age to me.

It's all passing me by too fast. I often wonder if I'm making the most of my teenage years. With the end of these years so close, it's hard not to look back on the good, the bad, and the ugly. But it does help that I can look back and say that I was truly happy. I experienced things that many people will never have to experience. But those experiences made me strong. They made me truly appreciate the happy times. They made me who I am today. And for that and that alone, it was all worth it.

4 comments:

jordan_kylie said...

oh jill, now i feel so old. im 20 in less than a month and it really is surreal. we learn and grow are time passes by. and something i've learned is that no matter how old i am, i plan on having one hell of a time every day :) love you girl! lets get old together!

Jordan Swan said...

Ew. 20. That is going to suck.
"When did we become adults and how do we make it stop?!" haha

JRuud said...

Hahah hey girls... least you aren't me.. I'm turning 22 May 12!! YA... not stop saying your old!!! haha.


Advice from the old woman to you youngers, enjoy every moment at every age. Because you are right.. it moves by you very very quickly!!

Least I can say I enjoyed every age until this point. :)

sienaleigh said...

O my story of my life...I feel like I am 19 going on 40 any more! But being grown up is a lot of fun! And I love you! And I think you are doing great as an old person!!