Change

"The key to change is to let go of fear"

Crossroad

Have you ever had a decision to make? A really hard one. A decision you knew would impact not only yourself but those around you. A decision that would alter the world as you know it?

I'm having one of those.

My decision isn't the most life altering I will have in my life. It's not even that big of a decision. In fact, if I look at the big picture, this decision is so miniscule I feel weird bringing it up. At the same time it seems huge right now. If this decision didn't impact people around me, it would be so much easier.

I hate these kinds of decisions. The ones where you weigh the pros and cons and still have no idea what to do.

I just hope I figure it out soon.

I wish it was...

Truth

"I believe in manicures. I believe in overdressing. I believe in primping at leisure and wearing lipstick. I believe in pink. I believe laughing is the best calorie burner. I believe in kissing; kissing a lot. I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day and I believe in miracles."

-Audrey Hepburn

24 Hours

24 hours.

That's all it took for my life to completely change. 1440 minutes and my life is so different I can't even explain it.

They are good changes though. Everything that is going on with me right now, in a heart beat, could make me so depressed that I could stay in bed for months, but for some reason I'm seeing it all as positive. I don't know why this is happening. I don't know why at this moment, I decide to be strong and in control. But, I guess your mind does things it has to to survive. I think I like this side of me, the side that turns a blind eye to the sad, negative side and focuses on the good. All my mind is thinking about is the amazing things this change could bring.

Although many posts have been written about my feelings of not wanting to grow up, I realize it is something that must happen. I am 20 years old. I guess I should start being mature? I should start being a real adult and stop acting like a teenager. Just a thought...

I feel like my life all the sudden decided to spring clean. It got rid of things that for some reason, I no longer need. The weird part is, I don't even feel like anything is missing. I look at the future and realize that at one point or another, this would have happened, why not now?

I feel anxious and excited. There are a lot of things changing and I know that it will not only enable me to grow up, but also become someone better. I'm actually relieved that all of this happened at once.

I'm seeing everything so clearly. My life can be so much better then it was before.

She's here!

Oh my! I must share with you my precious niece Emilee Ayn Jones! She was born Feb. 10, 2010 6lbs 9 oz and 19 inches long! I even got to be at the hospital when Cassie finally popped! I'm so proud of my sister! She's going to be an amazing mother. Emilee is the cutest baby I have EVER laid eyes on...I'm sure you'll agree. How could you not?

She's so adorable I can hardly stand it!

My crazy life.

I almost forgot you existed little blogspot. Life has been so crazy lately, I haven't had time to breathe-let alone blog! I didn't think my life could get any crazier. Boy, was I was wrong!

School is more demanding then ever right now, it's hard to believe it's going to get worse. The business school is much harder then I imagined. When you enter the business school at the University of Utah, you don't just learn about your field of interest (in my case accounting and marketing), but you learn about all aspects of business. I'm taking management, IT, accounting, etc. My degree doesn't just cover accounting and marketing-it covers everything involved in the business world. I'm not sure why I have to take IT classes or entrepreneur classes. I don't really care about RAM, cashe, or database design. I didn't know fully what I was getting into. A business major is tough.

I do love my accounting class. The rules and organization are interesting to me. The concepts are hard and I have to study a lot, but I feel like I picked the right major.

Work is good, but crazy. Not only do I do the bookkeeping, QuickBooks, and pay bills for the company, but I also do ordering for the lab, write press releases, and schedule our consultant's trips. This job has enabled me to grow so much in business already. I actually learned how to set up an Ethernet system and how to reconcile bank statements. This job is a little like the business school. I do the IT stuff, the marketing, and the accounting. I get a little bit of each aspect of business everyday I come into the office. I can't believe how lucky I've been.

Recently, I became Vice President of Finance in Pi Phi, which in reality is treasurer. This job is another that surprised me. I wanted to be VPF so that I would be free of the planning, of getting people to realize the importance of attendance, and so I would have less responsibility. Again, I was wrong on that part. VPF is a constant job. Unlike the other positions I have had, I constantly have things to do as VPF. I pay the bills, track the budget, ensure girl's are paying on time, and do reimbursements. On the bright side, this position is great experience for my major and I am understanding finances much more. Plus, it will be great for my resume. I can't imagine not being on exec in Pi Phi. I have such a love for the organization. Plus, this position has given me the ability to understand how Pi Phi works on the business side, which is extremely interesting!

My days are packed full. I go to morning classes, work, then night classes. I hardly have time for anything. Then again, I have always been one who likes a busy life. I never thought life could get too busy for me and as of now, I don't think it is. But add one more thing on my plate and I will be getting NO sleep!

On a positive note- my New Year's Resolutions are going great! I'm working out at least 3x a week I've even lost 7 pounds!!, I'm studying more, and I'm hanging out with the girls more (with the little time that I have!)