Such a great night!

Last night I went to the Tickle Me Pink/ I Hate Kate concert with my friends from high school! It was sooo fun! I can honestly say it was one of the best nights of the summer. I love being around Jessica-my bestie from high school. She just GETS me. She knows my secrets, my deepest thoughts, my past, and the way I think. She's ambitious just like me. And is a total feminist. (or at least I think so). We just get along so well....we're A LOT alike. I love that she basically thinks JUST like me. Something can happen and we will both have the same mindset. We spent the majority of the time I've been in Colorado having deep talks, going out, and most of all-laughing. My abs have gotten SUCH a work out this weekend!

Then Tickle Me Pick came on. Gosh men who are in bands just attract me. I swear, they are sooo dang sexy! Here's some pics of my amazing night!

I Hate Kate was awesome! I love them. Here's a song, called "I'm in Love with a Sociopath"

Sometimes, you just need words.

I realized something today:

I'm going to be fine! Just fine! I read this quote:

After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul, and you learn that love doesn't mean leaning and company doesn't mean security, and you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts and presents aren't promises, and you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes open, with the grace of an adult, not the grief of a child, and you learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans. After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much. So plant your own garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And you learn that you really can endure... that you really are strong, and you really do have worth.

and this one:

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts. You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts. Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back.

and this one:

When it hurts to look back and you're scared to look ahead...

you can look beside you & your best friend will be there ((Thanks Molly))

and I feel so much better about everything.

(I got all of these off of boardofwisdom.com)

Where's my magic 8 ball?

I wish that ol magic 8 ball really worked.

How simple life would be if the questions that keep us up at night could be answered with one simple shake of a ball.

For example, I'm spending thousands of dollars going to school, dedicating at least 4.5 years of my life, and I have no idea if marketing is what I will want to do with my life. And after all that work and money! If that magic 8 ball could just tell me-I'd feel a little better about what I was doing with my life.

I'm 19. My frontal cortex is still developing. I'm not the same person I will be in 2 years, let alone almost 5.

Then again many people say that it doesn't really matter what your degree is in-as long as you have one. But, what if I want to do something totally different and I lack the knowledge?

And what about the other probing questions that attack my mind at night?

You know, the ones about my own life. The questions that, if I ask my friends the answer to, they always replay, "it's up to you."

Yeah, what about those questions?

I guess that this life is what those questions are all about. Those decisions are the ones that make us or (b--r--e--a--k) us. They give us life experience and allow us to make mistakes and become who we are.

But sometimes....I just want an answer. I just want to know what will bring me the most happiness...what will benefit me in the future...which decision will make me the better person.

I guess I need to look into being a wiccan...eh?

Roadside. Rise Against.

It's simple.

He's just not that into you if he's telling you he doesn't want to be with you. That's an easy one...right?

I'm too dazed and confused.

I have no idea what I'm going to do.

I'm shaking.

How did it come to this?

I want to hold on.

But I know I can't.

For some reason, letting go isn't coming as easily as it usually does.

ill

^^ At the moment, this is how I look, exactly. Almost to a tee ^^

I forgot how awful it was to be sick. It's been awhile since I've been stay-in-bed-constant-ill feeling-sick. And let me tell you, I could have done without being reminded what it was like.

Having the flu is the worst thing EVER. I feel so sick and I can't do anything! It's ridiculous! When I want to do homework, all I can think about is how awful I feel. I can't enjoy movies or shows because I feel so blahhh. I just hate it.

I have my math final on Wed, so right now is the WORST time to feel sick! Annnd I had to leave work early because I was so sick, something I hate doing. I'm a poor college student! I need those hours. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

The thing that hit me the hardest was how much being sick made me miss my mom. Currently, she is trail riding with my horse in the mountains. And I'm stuck here...on my couch...watching Law and Order...sick as hell!

Hope this flu is the 24 hour kind...that would just be wonderful!